Love struck and watching way too many chick flick romantic movies!

So does love really happen the way it does in movies? I don't think so. I have been in several relationships in my life and thought I was "in love" several times and ended up just "in infatuation". I think that is what a lot of us end up falling into. We don't even know it until that person is up and gone and we don't even know how it happened. "I thought it was going great, I thought that he was almost ready to commit". YEAH RIGHT...

I sit here and watch all my friends live this life now of love and happiness and family. I sit here and live the life of a girl in bible college and looking for that man that will put up with here and will be willing to let her follow what God wants her to do in her life. I don't know how love works into that but I am hoping that it can maybe be the dessert I get with it. I just want what God has for me. I just wish it would come a little sooner than it feels like it is coming. ;) 

I think of all the times I have went searching for the right person and it failed. So I am trying my best to sit back and let this one happen on it's own. Well I hope it does. Of course I would be interested in the hardest person to read in the world! And he doesn't take a hint.... Well I wish I could just post it on his facebook in bold letters I LIKE YOU AND I HOPE YOU LIKE ME TOO!!! LOL That would not only be embarrassing but also just plain outrageous. But needless to say I want to take that risk and tell him that I would like to date him and see what could happen. It would be nice if I could remove the chance of rejection and awkwardness. But I guess love comes at a price. If it isn't worth making a fool out of yourself over maybe it isn't worth it at all... 

I am going to now go and curl up in bed and listen to some sappy song and fall asleep dreaming of the day that I can say i took a chance and I got what I wanted out of it... Good night