The legal age in this country is 18. The people say that after 18 years of life you are capable of making decisions and living on your own. I don't know when we are really ready for that. I am 24 years old and I am still struggling with this issue in life. I make decisions and I do things that I am supposed to... or what other people think I am supposed to do.
There are times when I feel like I am dying inside. I have done a lot of things in my life that I thought would make me the person I wanted to be. I have found that I haven't done anything that makes me alive. The only thing that has given me any kind of life is my life with God. I love that don't get me wrong but He also has other things in mind for me in my life.
I am tired of living life for everyone else. I want to live life for me. And I am probably going to make some mistakes but the reality is that I will never be perfect on this earth. Everyone can try and shelter and protect me from things but all it does is build animosity in me towards people.
I think it is time for some people in my life to let go and let me do... I am not always going to do things that make you happy but I want to do it for me. I want to make decisions in life and learn. I want to make something of my life. I want to have love, I want to have life, I want to be something that I can't even imagine and I will never get there with everyone else making decisions for me in my life, because no one really knows what is going on in my heart and my mind. No one knows what really makes me happy and makes me feel alive inside. I want to discover how to make that alive in me. I want to spread my wings and fly and maybe even have a few crash landings... but if I don't try how do I know if I can do it????
Starting a new journey with a new purpose.
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